Wednesday, June 7, 2017

687 Days

Matthew 19:14

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

What does 687 days mean? It is the amount of days we enjoyed our legendary princess, Sabrina, from birth till she was called to heaven. It has now been the same amount of days that Sabrina “left to Heaven.” It dawned on us after listening to a beautiful “Green Talk” with La Fofi’s Rainbow Foundation where Betsy spoke about the same scenario. Those close to us know that I always mention that my life before July 21, 2015 was a fairytale. It started as just a regular workday on a Tuesday till I received the most frightening call from my husband. Running out of my office, running to my car, driving to the hospital, parking wherever there was a space available. Running out of my car, feeling the pavement under my feet till I would run into the ER screaming, crying and in complete loss. Front staff and nurses knew I was there for a toddler in the emergency. A lady that works inside the ER had me sit in front of her, asked if I believed in faith and to begin praying with her as I noticed through the corner of my eye seeing over several fireman, officers, nurses, and doctors all working on Sabrina. Anxiety kicking in, family rolling in, they had us in a 4x4 room with chairs to wait in there till the doctor could come out and update me. At this point I have no idea how many hours it was but I felt this huge knot in my heart and throat as I am writing this I get the same feeling. I get these flashbacks till this day and probably for the rest of my life. When the doc walks with a couple of his nurses, he has a face of distress. Eyes blood shot that appeared he was crying. He comes to then tell me that Sabi did not make it. From that moment I just remember collapsing on the floor in a fetal position, screaming, in shock, in disbelief, angry, and leaving the hospital without Sabrina. The last time I had felt, smelled, kissed that precious angel was that AM before going into work. The only thing I wanted was Erik to be by my side. I felt the only person truly on this earth that could understand this complete pain; heart removed from my soul would only be him. I felt life was on a pause. Mind in a fog. That feeling continued for months, I would say about 6 months or so when Erik and I decided to go away for Christmas to Quebec, CA. The conversation sparked as how empty we felt. How we miss this little soul on earth with us. How we felt incomplete and that maybe we should start the consultation process about going back to doing IVF. So after a rollercoaster of emotions in going through the entire process - getting pregnant, being pregnant and finally meeting Sabrina’s sister, Anna Sofia. We have to look back at these last 687 days and say they were stormy , but what a blessing to receive the most precious rainbow. She makes us believe that unicorns are real. She gives us hope every single day. Her smiles alone help beat our heart faster. So as we continue on this new normal we have to believe now that we are 687 closer into being reunited with Sabrina. We continue and I hope we continue to feel Sabi spirit on earth. I know your sister feels and sees you too. Anna Sofia and all children are truly a gift from god. We all are children of god. Hug your little ones a little extra harder today and enjoy today, as tomorrow is not promised.

God bless and thank you for continuing your prayers,
The Pizarro’s


“with God all things are possible."
Matthew 19:26

Photo credit: Shanna Nye Photography

Photo credit: Melissa Queen


Thursday, September 22, 2016

After the Storm

Hello again to everyone reading our blog. I know it's been a while since we last updated this blog (3 years to be exact) and a lot has happened since then. But we just wanted to update everyone with our story. As you can imagine, it's been a very difficult year for us since our Legendary Princess, Sabrina went to Heaven. The road to recovery never stops from such a tragedy, but we have been blessed with such an amazing group of family and friends that have shown us nothing but love and support. Complete strangers are reaching out to us and showing their support as well. Some of those families have had similar experiences to ours. We learn from each other and give support in any way that we can. Throughout this trial, our faith has grown extensively. Being closer to God and being lead by faith have given us hope. Thanks to the support, our faith and community, we have been able to survive this trial with our spirit held high and loving spirit. Sabrina only knew love, she only knew joy. As she looks down at us, we have to attempt to keep that spirit so that she can find us. And we know that she sees us, because she sends us butterflies to let us know she's around.

Throughout this past year, we have discussed if and when we would ever want to have another child. Having a child is not something that comes easy for us. As you are aware, IVF is pretty much the only way that we can conceive. Well, thanks in large part to you, our wonderful community who blessed us with your donations to the fund account setup in our name, we were able to go and attempt another round of IVF. We have been blessed and are happy to announce that we are expecting another baby girl, Anna Sofia, due March 2017!!!

We are beyond excited to have this opportunity once again. Sabrina hand picked Anna Sofia from Heaven for us here on Earth. Thank you once again and stay tuned for more entries as we will do our best to keep this blog going. Love and blessings to all.

Special thanks to the wonderful people at IVF Florida, Dr. Daniel Christie, Alex Rios and team. We'd also like to thank Jennifer Alvarez for capturing our intimate gender reveal.

- The Pizarro's

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Happy "Birth" Day

6:50PM, September 2, 2013, Sabrina Natale Pizarro entered our world and changed our lives forever (of course for the best). We arrived at Baptist Hospital on September 1 for Natalie's 40th week check up. The plan was for Natalie to go in for an ultrasound and non-stress test and then we would return to the hospital on September 2 so Natalie would be induced. You see, Natalie's primary OBGYN, who delivered her 31 years ago, was out of town for Labor Day weekend and Natalie was really hoping he would deliver the baby. However, the ultrasound revealed that Natalie's amniotic fluid had dropped significantly and it was time for the baby to be delivered.

When the nurse came to talk with us and advise that it was time for baby, we were stunned. We both stood there in shock as we were expecting to return the next day. Shock turned into happiness as we were finally going to meet our little miracle. Natalie was immediately admitted to a delivery room and the waiting began.

At approximately 6PM Natalie was induced with Cervadril. The on call doctor, who was awesome, advised us that the medication takes approximately 12 hours to take effect. Finally at around 2AM, Natalie's water broke and began to feel contractions. The epidural was administered and the labor process was officially on the way. Quick note on that epidural, the needle is HUGE. The nurse advised Erik that if he wanted to see the epidural administered, it would be best to sit. Thank goodness for the advice, because as soon as that needle went in to Natalie's back, Erik got weak in the knees.

And we waited, and we waited, and we waited... At approximately 4PM, to our surprise, Natalie's OBGYN showed up to help deliver this baby. We were so happy that he was able to be there and he was just as thrilled to be there with us.

Natalie began pushing at around 430PM and continued for several minutes to no avail. She took a break for approximately 45 minutes or so and then continued another round of "pushes." Natalie was completely exhausted and almost broken. But she was so amazing throughout the entire birthing and finally she prevailed after about another hour or so of pushing. As soon as Sabrina was out, there was such a rush of joy. Natalie, Erik and Natalie's parents, who were in the delivery room, were overcome with so much emotion and joy. Natalie's father immediately went out to the waiting area, where approximately 30 people waited, and advised them that Sabrina was here! Sabrina was placed into Natalie's arms and we were all in love.

Sabrina was born on September 2, 2013 at 6:50PM and weighed 6lbs and measured 19 inches. She was perfect. After so much heartbreak and disappointment, our miracle baby, who we have been waiting for for so long, was finally here. It was such an incredible journey. Far from perfect, but we wouldn't trade our journey for anything in the world. Sabrina brings us so much joy and happiness and we are so blessed to finally have her in our arms.

Thank you all who have been there for us and have encouraged us and brought so much positive energy. We are so blessed to have so many wonderful people in our lives that have been so gracious and so loving towards us. Sabrina is here!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Third Trimester

So here we are, 36 weeks into our pregnancy. The second trimester went by pretty smoothly; however, we hit a slight bump on the road heading into the third trimester. On a routine visit to the doctor, Natalie was told that she would need to check her glucose levels. When the results came back she was told that she had developed gestational diabetes. Natalie met with a specialist dealing with diabetes and was told that although her sugar levels were a bit high, she would not need to be put on any medication. Natalie was told that she would need to monitor her sugar levels in the morning and approximately 2 hours after each meal. So that meant more needles!!! We were bummed, especially since Natalie spent the first month or so of the IVF process constantly poking needles in her body. Luckily, in most cases of gestational diabetes, it is gone after the placenta is expelled. Hopefully, this battle will be a short one.

Maternity Pictures
We also had an incredible opportunity to reconnect with our wedding photographer, Stephen Maloman. We got together at a park in Ft. Lauderdale and he snapped up some simple, yet fantastic pictures. Natalie was glowing and the pictures came out perfect. Thank You Maloman!!!!!

Yoga and Crossfit
As some of you may know, Natalie was an active crossfitter (don't think this a verb, but i'm making it one) prior to the IVF/pregnancy process. During the IVF process and early weeks of pregnancy, Natalie had to drop her crossfitting ways. However, as active as she is, Natalie could not just sit around and do nothing. Natalie began prenatal yoga sessions with her friend, Kat. The yoga sessions helped Natalie stretch out those legs and taught her the proper breathing techniques for when she was to go through labor. In addition to yoga, Natalie got back into crossfit. With the help of Virginia and Guido Trinidad over at Peak 360, Natalie was able to keep her fitness levels up. They helped modify the workouts and movements to ensure that she got the best workout in the safest manner possible. Natalie loved the sessions and can't wait to go back with baby in tow.

Baby Shower

On June 23rd, a baby shower was held at Anacapri in Coral Gables. Family and friends showed up to shower baby "Icee" with love and an abundance of gifts. We were truly blessed to have had such a wonderful time with everyone and share in our special moment. Thank you all!!!

So as we head into the final weeks of pregnancy there's only one thing on our mind:
                                                     The Baby Is Coming!!!!

Is it a boy or a girl? Stay tuned for the arrival...

Sunday, May 19, 2013

The Second Trimester

Sorry for the delay everyone. I know it's been a while since we've updated our blog, but nevertheless, we have lots to get to.

As we mentioned in our last post, the first trimester was not kind to Natalie. Nausea, vomiting, restlessness and the such. Thankfully, the same could not be said for Natalie during her second trimester. Natalie has endured a much more pleasant second trimester. No needles, medications (other than prenatal vitamins) or nausea. Her belly has begun to grow at a more rapid pace and has been "showing" much more as of late.

The second trimester also brings baby shower planning! We want to thank everyone that is involved in helping to plan and coordinate the shower. One of the more exciting parts of planning for the baby shower is scanning items for the registry. We seriously spent like 4 hours at Buy Buy Baby (can you tell the tone of excitement in that sentence). It was a truly eye opening experience. There were so many different types of bottles, formulas and an entire wall of pacifiers (really?!).  It was a bit overwhelming, but we had fun picking products for our future little one. We are looking forward to seeing our family and friends at the baby shower. See you there!

We have also realized how infrequent Natalie has to go in for doctor visits. After having several visits with the doctor during the IVF process and the first trimester, Natalie has only gone monthly for follow ups. Also, no new ultrasounds. Apparently, ultrasounds are not needed unless medically necessary. Doesn't the doctor know we want to see our baby! Our next visit is coming up in June, hopefully we'll get to see our little one then.

So 25 weeks down and 15 to go. We'll definitely update our blog again soon. Thanks for looking everyone..... GO HEAT!

Monday, February 4, 2013

Weeks 7-10

Week 7

As we entered week 7, we were scheduled for our first ultrasound on January 14. We were finally going to meet our little embryo "Icee". Getting the results of the pregnancy test was thrilling; however, being able to actually see and hear a heartbeat was reassuring.  As the doctor proceeded with the ultrasound, she showed us where the baby was located and pointed out the heartbeat. To take it even further, we were able to listen in on the heart beat. We melted! There wasn't a single dry eye in the room. After so much trial and tribulation, this gave us a reassuring sense of completeness (don't think that's a word, but you get my drift). So, as for the baby... the baby measured in at 1.09 cm and had a heart beat of approximately 158.  Right below, is the first ever pic of the little one.

Right as Natalie entered Week 7, morning sickness ensued. She felt nauseous and had the urge to throw up just about every morning. Natalie also began to have a hard time eating. Typical foods that she would eat would make her nauseous. She was on a steady carb diet (if you can call it that). Crackers, bread, and pizza were about the only foods she could stomach. Besides her change in appetite, Natalie's sense of smell was heightened. Seriously, if there was anyone in the zip code smoking a cigarette, Natalie would know.

Week 8
Our second ultra sound was scheduled a week after ultra sound #1. In that 1 week, the baby grew 1 cm. We included a clip of the ultra sound where you'll be able to see and hear the heart beat.

Week 9
No ultra sound appointments this week, but the morning sickness and nausea ensue.

Week 10
So Natalie just entered her 10th week, and to "celebrate", we decided to start taking pictures of her belly to see how she grows. She's starting to show just a little bit.

Our next ultra sound appointment is scheduled for Feb. 7 with the OBGYN. This will be our first appointment with the OBGYN since the IVF process started. We then have an appointment with the IVF doctor on Feb. 8, and hopefully Natalie will begin to be taken off of her meds. So much is happening so fast. Keep checking back with us as we count down the weeks to meeting our little one.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

The Transfer and the Result

Hello once again everyone! I know it's been a while since we last updated our blog, but there was so much happening in the last month (holidays, house hunting, etc) that it has been hard to find the time to update the blog. So, let's see, where did we last leave off... Ah yes, we last left off with Natalie's retrieval process in which 26 eggs were retrieved but only 1 was strong enough for transfer. Fast forward to December 14 and Natalie and I were off to the doctor's office for the transfer procedure.

The transfer procedure was done out of the IVF doctor's office as an outpatient procedure. No anesthesia was needed and the process was not as invasive as the retrieval. The doctor came in and comforted Natalie and assured her that everything was going to go great. The procedure began with the doctor injecting a catheter into Natalie's uterus. Then, the embryologist arrived with embryo #3 in tow. Picture below:

Crazy, huh?! So embryo #3 (or Icee was we called it) was injected through the catheter and inserted into Natalie's uterus for a successful transfer! The entire process took approximately 10 minutes. The doctor informed us that Natalie was to be on bed rest for the next couple of days and was to return 10 days later to go over the results.

The Result

After 10 long days of praying and anticipation, the day finally arrived in which we would learn the fate of the IVF procedure. This date just so happened to be December 24th. We arrived at the doctor's office and Natalie's blood was drawn. As if we hadn't waited long enough, we had to wait another 30 minutes before we found out our results! Those were the slowest, most anxious 30 minutes ever. Finally, we heard our names called and we were given the amazing news that Natalie was pregnant!

As you can imagine, we were thrilled. After an incredibly long journey, we were given the best gift we can ever imagine, the gift of life. Now we embark on a 9 month pain staking journey. But we could not be happier and relieved to know that we will be able to extend our family by 1 with our new addition. We couldn't thank everyone enough that was there for us. From the doctor, to the nurses and to all our friends and family for keeping us in your prayers and for giving us your words of encouragement. We are truly blessed and believe that miracles do indeed happen.